I am Looking Forward to Being a Mother... That's Right, I Said It.

 

(No, I'm not expecting) My how the time is zooming by so fast!  It's as if I just arrived to Japan and was trying to decide which law schools I'd apply to.  Boy, did God have a different plan for me! (though I was hoping there was a different LSAT score in that plan, but whatever.)

Call it baby fever or whatever the catchphrase is these days... but ummmmm, G and I have been making plans for a little one.  Oh Sheesh!  [Squeals of delight!!]

Anyway, I am surrounded by pregnant mothers with humps for bellies and new mothers smitten with love for their cute bundles of squeals, screams, and baby laughs and I just can't help thinking about our little one.  So, I'm going to go ahead and just let it be known....

I'm so excited to have a little baby!  I want to be a mother!

Just writing that feels a bit awkward though, like I'm selling out or something.  Like I'm not supposed to admit that I want this.  Like I'm weak.  Strange.  Aren't I supposed to want the greater career, the MBA, the law degree, etc? 

That's what I used to want.  But something happened during my 2nd year working in Japan.   Yes, a part of that 'something' was my handsome and sweet G, but the other part of that something was acceptance of my being a woman and saying it's okay to want these things.  I have been a wife for one year now (remember we eloped) and I enjoy my new role of being a wife.  It's quite challenging but it's something I work hard on, just like my work at the office.  This morning, G hugged me while I was getting ready for work and said, "You are such an oasis for me."  I replied, "An oasis of what?"  He said, "An oasis of love.  It's like on the outside there is this tough and cruel world and then I come home to you and I am reminded of how much God loves me, through you."  That made my heart melt.

He's my oasis too. [heheheh, i'm so in love.]

So back to what I was saying.  Some may disagree, but the overwhelming female culture back home in the US really promotes an ultra-feminist (all the while denying it's feminism) male and family resenting culture among a lot of women. Until recently I think I might have viewed marriage and having a family as a slow-down to what "I" wanted.   Bottom line for me is this, God has a purpose and a plan for me and it is always better than what I could plan for myself.  All I can do is try to be the best I can in whatever role I am in.  Right now my roles are listed on my blog masthead...  But those can change real quick and when I am blessed with a new role m-o-m-m-y will be displayed proudly up there!

(That picture displayed are of twins from a black and white couple.  Read Here)

SiT

Comments

[kj]

you know what t dot this is all good. i have been thinking about this a lot lately. i would be perfectly content feeding the goats tending the farm with my baby strapped to my back. right now that's not an option for me so i'm doing what else i can do. career minded. i have been thinking that our society's values are changing so much. what is wrong with being a house wife, getting married, and having kids. not saying this is the only role for a woman. i will say things were a lot better for families back when this was the typical goal of a woman and man. i hope you have lots of babies and lots of love.

[Rainy]

I hope you get that baby. My sister is going to have a baby next week. She will have 4. I hope your love lasts forever.

[1HealthyMom]

It's like having a baby is trendy now! Whatever it is I felt the bug too. My lil one is now 3 months old. I can't believe he's mine.

[kes]

wish you the best safest and the most pleasent little bundle of joy ENJOY MYSISTER ARE THERE ANY JAPANES MEN?DO THEY LIKE BLACK WOMEN?IM LOOKING FOR ONE haha pls let me know

take care

[kes]

sister i cant believe it my name is kes haha you look beutiful your wedding photos are lovelly i love japan i really would like to spend some time there IM SO IN LOVE WITH ASIAN PEOPLE I PRAY EVERYDAY FOR GOD TO GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE WITH AN ASIAN LOVE
i like what you said that you had an MBA in mind but the one above us all had a totaly diferent plan stay blessed

[Mike]

Great new look to your blog. Check out mine here-

http://redneckadventureinjapan.blogspot.com/

I just started it.

[Md. Ashaf khan]

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